When he is through with me, I shall come forth a pure gold 💃💃. Part 1.
I will forever recall that late 2017, all of 2018, and 2019 (the first 6 months) to be the roughest times of my life, spiritually. I had so many battles to face and felt like I was in a furnace. I remember my cousin sending me a message saying that she was praying for me and, during her prayer, she felt a massive burden and that she doesn’t know how I’m managing as any normal person would go crazy. I thanked her for her prayers and thanked God.
99 problems but a man ain’t one? Wrong!
By the end of 2017, I had major man problems. I was in a relationship that wasn’t working out as it should. That affected me because at the time, my spiritual struggles were just starting and instead of finding a confidant in the individual, I found no support. (That’s a story for another day). I ended up breaking it off in February 2018 as I refused to take so much and no more mess.
Then, to top it all off…my biggest fight came through a Christian at my workplace. To this day, I have no clue why the person seemingly hated me. I was accused of poor communication. This “opinion” of me would be shared with external clients, some of whom came back to tell me what was said 😱.
In the beginning of 2018, I acted in a senior post in an entity external to my workplace, and was asked to conduct team building exercises. At the end of the acting, the individual I acted for informed me that the staff expressed their enjoyment in the exercises. I returned to work, and by August was acting in a supervisory role. But the christian staff member told the entire office that I was “incompetent and didn’t know how to supervise anyone”. Best believe that a part of me started to wonder if it were true.
But God. He reminded me that I had done an acting assignment in a much bigger post and did a good job. So much so that I was asked to act again in 2019 🙆. I pause here to say that God will set you up in certain positions to prove your abilities so that when others try to tear you down, you can stand confidently in him.
God never wants his children to feel less than they are, or insecure about ourselves. His reminder boosted my spirit. This is another reason I say that he is the lifter of my head (Psalm 3:3). He says we are above, and not beneath; the head, and not the tail. So, I boast in this God who will not allow me to believe the lies of the enemy, and will remind me of who I am in him.