Why I stayed in Jamaica instead of going to Japan…
Two years ago, around October/November 2018, I resigned from my post in the youth ministry at my local church. The co-director and I were trying everything to reach the youths, yet nothing seemed to work. There was too much to do and too little persons to help carry the load. Then, the co-director got married and left to worship at her husband’s church (I was happy for her but sad to see her go).
By this time, I was at a spiritual standstill. I will forever recall late 2017 and all of 2018 to be the roughest times of my life, spiritually. I had so many battles to face…(but that’s something I’ll boast about tomorrow, God’s willing). So with all that was going on in my life, I was drained. And, I decided to resign as I firmly believe that one shouldn’t lead people if one cannot intercede for them.
So, I resigned and started making plans to go to Japan to teach English. But when I prayed about it, God said I should stay in Jamaica and resume my role in the youth ministry. I was like, “But God, Japan is so nice and it’s the opportunity of a lifetime” 🙆. Then I said, “prove to me without a shadow of a doubt that this is what you want”. He did by using a song that said, “Is it right for me? But that Spirit says go”.
However, someone else was given the task to be interim youth leader and I wasn’t about to make a mess. (I don’t like messes in church). So I prayed, “Lord, since this is your will, you sort it out because I’m not saying anything and then end up in a power struggle”. So, I left it and continued supporting where I could while trying to improve my spiritual life.
Months went by, but I wasn’t concerned. I trusted in God’s timing. One day, while walking into my yard, as I passed the gate, a voice said that I should select persons for my committee. But I was like, “Ahm no, one is already there”. A few weeks later, the interim leader announced that he had accepted an opportunity to work in China and he felt like that was what God wanted him to do. So, I was like, “Okay God, you couldn’t be clearer about you this”. But still, I waited for a few days/weeks until the associate pastor called a meeting with the youth committee. It was then I mentioned that I believed that this was what God wanted me to do.
My point is this, I serve a God who wants to guide my life so that I fulfill my purpose. He doesn’t want us to aimlessly wonder around, doing good/great things, but still not fulfilling our purpose, not walking in our calling. He is a God who will make the way for us to walk in his will without conflict. This is called divine alignment. No matter how difficult the situation may seem, I serve a God who will cause a shift and remove persons, open doors, and even close doors to make a way for you. What a God!