Today, I reflected on this merciful God. And I reviewed an aspect of my life, contemplating if I should or should not speak specifically about it. The church tends to shun others who speak openly about their past,often times asking, “why did you have to say that?”…
Well, I really don’t care who wants to get hung up on my past sins and ignore the grace. This is about boasting about God and I’m truly grateful for his loving-kindness. If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. 2 Corinthians 11:30 ESV
Restarting my walk as a christian, I came in with my own struggles. Among them, I struggled to stop having sex out of marriage (Christianity calls it fornication). So, I cried and prayed, and tried to change. Not much helped. And as I was trying my best to live for God, i kept repenting and pleading for forgiveness over and over. This was especially hard because I felt like God didn’t forgive me and I just wasn’t trying hard enough. Am I better now? Much better (but that’s another blog). Do I still mess up from time to time? Yes.
But in all this, I’ve come to understand the verse that says, “For sin will have no dominion over you, since you are not under law but under grace.” Romans 6:14 ESV. This means that sin has no power to keep me bound and unforgiven.
But, you see, God’s grace says sin has no power over me. That means, when I sin, I’m free to walk back into his presence with a repentant heart. Just as David did after he sinned. He didn’t stay stuck in despair and backslide, calling himself a sinner. No, he was free to say “create in me a clean heart, oh Lord, and renew a right spirit within me” (Psalm 51). God’s grace is more than powerful to cover a multitude of sins. So now, do I feel badly when I sin? Of course. Do I still feel far from God when I do sin? Definitely not. I am not trapped in sin and sinful patterns. I have received grace to walk in forgiveness and break unGodly patterns.
God’s grace is greater than all my sins.